Really, no point being the only one bothered.
Let it go.
Reduction is increment.

Blogging is the best way (to me, so far) to collate thoughts and feelings.
Maybe because it just my feelings, thoughts and me.
I love jogging because that's when my thoughts run with me and I always enlighten myself after the 20mins.
The feeling is hard to describe.
But I think I need personal time now.
I am so tired.
Then again, I would wanna meet up with friends right after exams.
:)

I need those fucking ice packs for my knees.
And the neck is so sore after an adjustment.

I have been such a good student.
I deserve a trip to Australia this Dec.
Everyone needs motivation to work harder.
Australia shall be my motivation this semester.
Europe shall be the motivation for my last sem.
:D

 At the cocktail party, one woman said to another, "Aren't you wearing your wedding ring on the wrong finger?" The other replied, "Yes. I am. I married the wrong man." 

 Irresponisibility and unfollowed plans.

I realised my livejournal is dying.
I hardly make public updates.
I kept this account so that I still get to read friends' blogs.
:)

My daily updates at http://solesofmyfeet.wordpress.com

Here's a public one.

In short, I'm beginning to hate weekends.

 AGAIN. I’ve got a freaking paper tmr which I’ve not attended any lecture since the beginning and right now, I’m between taking MC or getting a D. I’m desperate. I’m so desperate, I might even bring cheat sheets in. But I’ve no idea what topics are gonna come out nor what should be in my cheat sheets! Why can’t they make micro econs an open book exam. At least…I won’t be getting a D.

I’d Macs breakfast this morning. My whole mind was convinced to eat Big Breakfast set but I ended up with Sausage McMuffin meal. Hmm..who has a weak mind here? I ended up sleeping for the next 3 hours after breakfast. Now at 4.45pm, I’m still blogging about my state of trying to digest 11 chapters within the next 6 hours and once again, let the bell curve screw my grades. 

I’m so sick of talking about the stupid bell curve, I really wished that NUS could revise the system. No econs majors should deserve a D because the lecturer was speaking in his own accent that we, locals might not fully understand and hence, decide to skip all his lectures at discouraging hour of 4-6pm every Monday. We, really, should veto against foreign Prof although usually, Singaporeans aren’t any better. But at least, we fucking understand Singlish. Leh Lah Lor.

How I wish I could go back to seventeen. Where things were still good and happy.
Enjoying the company of friends, living life to the fullest and undo certain decisions.
Responsibility is the only thing I'm doing what I'm doing.
No sense of satisfaction, not happy, not fulfil.
Life is an unknown till you really reached there.
Never never never expect things to last.
Let me take all these like an adult.
No tears, no sweat. 

Exams are coming to an end.
Two more papers and I'll be done.
Swine flu, also known as  H1N1 has put us all at risk.
I gotta be an hour earlier for my exams for temperature taking.
What the helllll...
Which means.. I gotta be there at 8am for a morning paper.
Leaving house at 7am because I won't know if there's gonna be a jam.
Waking up at 6 am is not something I looked forward to.

When it was April, I kept saying can it be May already.
Now I'm in May, am I allowed to say..
Can it be August already?
I hate 2009.
I want it to be over asap.

MAY.
Sab's birthday.
It'll be good.
Everything will be good.
I pray for everything to be good and happy on the week.
And I will make that happen

.

That I managed to secure an internship.

HOLY.
I WANT TIME!
to sort out my life.
cos right now.. it's really in a complete mess.

Have no idea..
Why I'm getting so emotional over things these days..
damn me....

Oh!
LOOK OUT FOR SINGTEL GRID GIRLS MAN.
HAHAHAHA.
Ags, *winks*
hahahaha

SCREWED.
The first paper of each sem is always a screwed up.
So..my first paper yesterday was worse than a screwed up.
Becos I left the questions blank.
I couldnt write anything becos I've no idea what's the question asking.
:\
The second paper in the same day was slightly better.
3 essays to complete within 2 hours.
I wrote so much too fast, my hand was in pain after the last min.
Since 'A' levels econs, I don't remember writing so much becos NUS papers are either MCQs or short answers.
Goodness...my handwriting was illegible by the last essay.
Couldn't control my pen at all.
And I seem to have sweaty palms quite often recently.
Health is weak.
:|

3 more days to my 3rd paper.
I finally got to sleep all I want today and I'm feeling very lethargic now despite 11 hrs of sleep.
Oh..I think I'll be the first among u ppl to suffer from Parkinson's disease in time to come.
Start sending well wises to me.
Thanks.

Ughss..
Still deciding if I should make a trip to downtown to buy 4D!
Msged Sab a little too late and she's already home from outside. CRAP.

ARGHS.
Damn..for the sake of money.. 
Sheesh..I'm going over to Downtown.
Grab the chance to take a break from mugging too.
:))

Money Money come to me!

Sab baked muffins for me to bring home.
3 mins after I reached home with those bananas and choco muffins, THEY WERE GONE!
My parents each ate 2!
They almost took my last banana muffin away.
I'd to snatch it back and gobbled it down before it's gone if I leave it on table overnight.
I actually had the intention to have muffins for breakfast.
Looks like they're all gone now. hahahahaha..
I'm still amazed at how my parents were enjoying her muffins and throwing praises like free.
How unlike them.
Seriously, I don't see them giving compliments always. So rare but Sab and her muffins were praised several times in a row.
WOW!!
I'm so happy for Sab and her baking skills.
For my dad to say they're nice..it's really something cos he's usually very stingy with compliments.
My mum wanted to place order for Sab's muffins on my 21st! HOW AMAZING RIGHT!
She's ready to set up a muffin stall!
I wouldn't hesitate to invest heavily.
hahahahaha...

Way to go, Sabby baking muffins!
:D:D

The light in my room takes about 10mins to bright up since last night.
So when I returned home ytd, my room was in complete darkness and I survived using the table lamp to do some typings.
And now..
I'm waiting for the stupid light to bright up again..
It's taking longer than yesterday.
Still not lighting up..
damn it..
and dad's not doing anything about it.
nice.

If the light bulb blows up tonight, say good bye to mugging!
LIGHTS OUT! 
hahahaha..

Anyway, there's a diminishing returns to my productivity and I'm just gonna survive on Nescafe and chocolate during this period.
Oh. I jogged with sab ard her park and around her estate ytd.
I am finally convinced age is catching up and my fitness level will never be like before.
I used to be able to do 18 inclined pull-ups. I can't even do 5 now.
With age, it only gets harder to keep up with the fitness level when I was still in JC.

Oh and..I was reading this article about this japanese cyclist who has travelled the 120+ countries over 11 years on his old rusty bicycle. He hasn't been home for 11 years!
He was in Singapore recently and he commented that our roads are not cyclist-friendly. hahaha.
He wrote very funny things about India too. 

Things like..
"I am usually very healthy man. But when I come into India, I caught cold 2 times, I got diarrhea 2 times and I made abscess on my back 3 weeks ago and, on up the mouth a week ago then, on my knee right now. It is so dirty country and many virus are surrounded... This is India..." 
"I got an accident yesterday. Fought against Indian kids today. Don't know what will happen to me tomorrow."

Becos he's a japanese, his sentence structure is slightly awkward but nonetheless, those funny posts he'd on India were entertainment for the afternoon when I'd to battle financial econs.

 At almost 4am, I'm still wide awake all thanks to the Nescafe I took 4 hours ago. Caffeine is sure working for me. Have stopped relaying on coffee since last sem ended but picked up the habit again today to see me through the mugging season.

Talks about mugging, I always feel depressed and expressionless. I've to go through the shitty mugging process at least 4 times a year. 1 midterm and 1 final exams for each sem. With every sem, mugging only gets tougher and unbearable. I'm constantly seeking entertainment during the depressing mugging period.

Few things I do during the mugging period:
- Needless to say, MUG ALL I CAN.
- Read the papers daily to feel updated since I'll not be seeing the world much.
- Try  not go onto facebook cos there's no stop once it's started.
- Take a nap after 3-4 hours of intensive revision.
- Feel pek chek over things that I can't figure out no matter how much time I spent on it. For instance, the concaves and convexes.
- Shut down during dinner time to reboot.
- Talk to friends online after dinner time to destress.
- Grab whatever chance to sneak out of house for leisure purposes after Day 2 of mugging.
- Blog surfing whenever I feel like it.
Basically, I assume I've mugged when I spent large amount of time cooped in my room with stacks of notes before me. 

Oh.
On radio today, they say reading helps to relieve stress by 67% within 10 mins, listening to music relieve stress by 61% and taking strolls will relieve stress by 42%.
I've also read something quite interesting in my notes. It was said that happy people watch less TV. The more time you spent watching TV, the less happy you're. 
Hmm..I don't quite agree to that becos although I'm not spending time watching TV, I'm not happy. Having a life that revolves around hardcore mugging is nothing to be happy about! 

Gonna sign off now becos I need to continue being an unhappy person. 

An out-of-mind and inhumane dad threw his 10 months old baby girl into a pot of boiling soup after a quarrel with the mum.

You didn't see wrongly.
A DAD THREW HER BABY GIRL INTO A POT OF BOILING SOUP.
The baby was 90% burnt and announced dead today.

It's such a tragic to read news like this. 
What on earth did the baby girl deserve this.

Another piece of news on a body found floating in Kallang River. An indian man chose to jumped into the river after an argument with his girlfriend.
In the papers today, a highly-decomposed body was found somewhere in the woods. (Can't remember the exact details but it should be some forest in the north)

I start to wonder..what's happening to Singapore?
We don't see this kind of news a generation back.
People seeking death after a fight with girlfriend/boyfriend.
What more, a baby has to come into the picture.
I would choose to believe we're all lacking in our EQs.

Take it easy people.
An argument is not worth your life, or another innocent party's life.
If someone has to be sacrificed after every quarrel, the population will soon be ashes enough to reclaim lands.

Another week passed just like that.
Two more weeks to exams.
Last week of school and I'm still deciding if I should attend the last lecture later!
Kind of ridiculous for a student to decide on such an issue when there shouldn't even be a choice to begin with.
I've "survived" another sem skipping most lectures.
:|

Did a lot of baby sitting over the weekends.
So ready for my own now.
hahahahaha..

Can't wait for May.
Please let it be May already!

Good night, folks.

 First week of April's gone just like that.
Some time ago, I start to feel that I've only 12 hours a day.
My sleeping hour went from 10pm when I was a lot younger to now 2-3am.
So my body lags 5 hours behind on replenishing and regenerating new cells time.
In other words, my body is self-destructing on its own.
I woke up one morning voiceless not knowing what contributed to it.
Was shopping half way and my voice abruptly lowered itself at least 3 keys.
Is that like puberty stage 2? VOICE BREAK?!!?
:|

Stranded at a warm corner of the school sharing a table with an ex-module friend and her friend.
It's amazing how she still remembers me as her Year 1 Sem 1 German course mate.
I'd to ask for her name. So embarrassing. I hate to face this kinda situation. 
:|
Good thing, she doesn't remember mine too!
So..I introduced myself as Twen.
hahaha.
Was about to add them on facebook, but guess what!
THEY DON'T HAVE IT!
I'm surprised. No facebook!
They just proved to the whole lot of us that social-networking sites are a waste of time and life goes on without it. 
We shouldn't allow technology to lead our lives.
:D

We went on talking about politics becos she's a PS major and the other a Japan Studies Major.
Unexpectedly, there're a quite a handful of undergrad who are against PAP.
But well..as much as they "dislike" or "disapprove" the policies implemented by our government, we cannot deny that they've being doing a good job all these years and we should not overlook this fact.
Take a look at governments elsewhere, we should really appreciate what we have here.
I think I'm a pro-PAP.
PAP, please read this!!